goodbye my love

suddenly feel like miss him very much....
my f.r.i.e.n.d ....that's what relation i can introduce now, n future....

i changed alot for him.... cuz i'm afraid of 'breake up' this 2 words...
i tried to be the best gal friend for him....
i'm willing to change, to do anything for him...
but finally that word came out from my mouth..

the day b4 spm start, i asked him why treat me so cool recently....
rather go clubbing, party, cc also dont want to c me.....
when i call him he'll say " anything? nothing then bye bye lo"
......

i say, "maybe i'm not the best gal fren for u , u search for the one that really suite you la"
i talked kindly....
he say " i dont want to contact with u 1st, sit for yr exam, after spm i wont treat u like that anymore."
after the call, he nvr call me anymore....i'm the only stupid one, always call him, msg him...
and i cried everyday for his attitude...

i cant be patient anymore....
after physics paper, i asked him to cum....i lied him that my exam is over...
he came and keep playing piano....dint look at me also...after 20 min he wanna back home,
i tot he will do what he told me b4 spm.....he will treat me different after spm?
i still waiting for the 3 words.....
once he open the door, i hold him n hug him....he was like a wood, nvr hug me back....
then i hug very very tight, finally he put his hand on my arm...
i say "dont leave me"
he say : "its over"
he say he need freedom..
he want to go where he like to go...no need to inform me...
i let him go where he wanna go, i want him inform me just...caring...
i let him go clubbing although i dont like those place...
he dont understand...
and he say he didnt love me that much...
he say he know that i'm a good gal friend
he say he was a person who love gf very deep, but he get hurt many times so he dont love me that much....
i say, thats not fair...
with a "sorry" he walk out from my house..

i faced my pc whole night looking the pics we took...n cried...until the 2nd day i sit for my bc paper, once i open the paper, the question "自由的天空" which means freedom of sky.....thats the most difficult among all question i think.....
but i chose it. n i wrote what he told me..... refresh every words.....
then i ran to toilet n cried during exam....

i really love him...
but he dont care...
i ask him "will u forget me?"
he ans "maybe"
he had many gal friends b4, i'm the 13th....
but he is the 3rd man i love....
i'm seriously injured..


lam kha khong, thx for giving me those memories,
not sweet , but memorable.
sayonara my love